i really should get some sleep.. but i wanted to write a journal to thank everyone!!
you have helped me so much in becoming the person who i was always ment to be.
i switched highschool in the 3th grade which was VERRY hard.. i felt like i didn't know who i was because i had always been hiding who i really was
i guess i wasn't ready to show the world my true self and to be honest i had no clue who that real me was..
but because i switched schools it first got VERRY hard.. i was teased a lot because i was the new girl and i have always been taller and because of that bigger than the rest
add that up with my creative mixed personality and interests and you've got anouther reason why they didn't like me.. i was diffrend
but then i got some friends and i focussed on The legend of Zelda series which was a sort of creative relief for me
then i started drawing more often and my new friends suported me
school was still tough because my friends in school had a diffrend school building then me and i was still verry lonely
then i met Deviantart and it helped me in way's i didn't think where possible
i finished that school year and i was happy to get some vacation and rest
i had become friends with some classmates after a longggg period of time because they had slowly gotten to know me
then in the vacation i met up with some friends and did a lot of social things that i wasn't used to doing because i had always been an.. einzelganger so to say xD a loner.. misunderstood by both others and myself
then something came on my path which helped me lock that last key.. it was the Anime/Manga Axis powers Hetalia
the next schoolyear was the best schoolyear i ever had xD i have laughed my ass of this year and i will honestly miss all my teachers and classmates :3

my classmates have become my best friends and i am really really close to them
Hetalia fuels my creative life and gives me unlimited laughter
and deviantart has pushed me in ways i will never understand
you people helped me so much... and here I am.. i just turned 16, i'm going to study art starting next august, i have loads of good and close friends and most importantly
I AM FINALLY WHO I WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE AND WHO FROM NOW ON I WILL ALWAYS BE

thank you everyone